Monday, February 27, 2012
Rummaging through....
I dont pretend to know what love is for everyone, all I can do is tell you what love is for me....
It's knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone...but still getting weak-kneed when they walk into a room, catch your eye, and give you that smile.., its the touch of a hand in your hair, a kiss on the forehead. Its more than actually saying the words, its about it being all around, hanging in the air, ripe for the picking at any time.
Its coffee or tea..in the morning, and finding a heartstone on the path. Its in the sounds of a windchime, the whirr of a hummingbird. A quick haircut in the kitchen. Its about someone holding your shirt down when you try on clothing in the middle of the store. Its a back massage when you need it, and space when you dont, and knowing the difference.
Its also about turning towards each other in times of difficulty, and not away, which is hard to do when you're licking a wound. Its about wanting true happiness for the other because only then are we ourselves truly happy, its about having no room for pride and stubborness, no room for hurting and critisism, no time for selfishness and games. Its loving the other in sickness and in health, and it demands faithfulness beyond the mere call of fidelity because love extends far into the realms of trustworthiness.
Its about admitting our weaknesses and praising each others strengths. Its not about losing oneself, but about adjusting to the others needs and wants as they shift and adjust to yours. Its about saying sorry..readily, when we make mistakes...and its about accepting apologies just as readily. Because no matter how perfect love makes us feel..we just aren't. Love is looking in the same direction, even if we see things a little differently.
Love is the most forgiving and all encompassing of emotions and the rewards are multiplied ten fold in their return.
You would think intimacy in the face of love would be easy to do, but it is somewhat different, because as we get older the lines shift, the rules blur..and needs change, or do they?
It's learning to be comfortable with someone rummaging through your soul....it's about baring yourself and allowing the another to scoop up your past, all your anger.. and pain... and heartache...and disappointments...and fill your already love filled, bulging heart with something infinitely better. Its finding that even whilst youre in the midst of being two, you really arent seperate at all....
Its not easy..no-one ever said it was....
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Next Shot ~ Seasons Close-Up
Thanks for the invite Baz, here's wishing you and your group of admins the very best in your new endevour
MMM ~ Names ~ Heather Honey
My dad used to sing this to me when I was little..and sometimes when I wasnt so little...and listening to it today..still leaves me a little weepy...miss you Dad xx
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Picture Perfect ~ week #5 ~ Austere
Its week 5
of our competition over at
Picture Perfect
this weeks theme is:
AUSTERE
On a wintery visit to Toronto, we drove through the country and the frozen vineyards... found a new perspective on Iced Wine...brrrrr.....from the warmth of a coffee shop!
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
30 minutes
Your schoolboy smile fills the room
as you slide in next to me
bringing with you that familiar
double kiss
leaving twice kissed lipstick
on the corner of your mouth
I smudge it with my thumb
We order tea in a small round pot
30 minutes, you say, is what we have
and I smile
Its just enough time I think...
Sunday, February 19, 2012
A Walk on the Wildside!
After having a pretty messed up sleep last night I woke early and decided to take the dogs over to the orchards and try and add to the hundred or so pictures I already have of the trees and blossom snow. The bee hives have already been put out
..so we skirted around them. Senga was stung last year so we were doubly careful. After walking a little way though, I realized she wasnt around, and when I looked back, she was sitting wayyy back there...and did not move an inch! 
No amount of calling and sweet talk would entice her any deeper into the trees. Thinking she had thorn in her paw I walked back to see...
She kept her eye on the beehives and would not budge..
..eventually I had to pick her fat butt up and carry her a few yards before she believed me, and agreed the coast was clear! Very weird behaviour for her...
We had a fabulous walk, turned at the end of the line of trees and walked down next to the canal. As we were heading back, Hughey stopped for a drink in a little puddle of water, and encountered three very angry bees in the process, they buried themselves in his coat as I was frantically trying to knock them off, my frantic efforts wedged two under his collar...arghh...eventually i just squished them with the leash, he wasnt stung, just extremely anxious by the sound of the buzzing. Luckily Scotties have a thick undercoat, and lucky too that I had them leashed again by that time!! Hugheys not buying the whole bee-sting helps arthritis crap Im trying to sell him either...
Friday, February 17, 2012
Ugly Air
Eyewitness News meteorologist Miles Muzio takes an in-depth look at something that affects us all: the valley's air pollution. Farming, oil production, industry, cars and dust all contribute to poor air quality, and the surrounding mountains ensure the smog sticks around for days on end. The Bakersfield metro area is consistently ranked as one of the worst air regions in the country. What are the effects of the bad air? And, what can be done to improve the air quality?
What am I?
I never rest and Im never still
Moving silently from hill to hill.
I do not walk, or run or trot,
All is cool where I am not.
What am I?
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Picture Perfect ~ Far from Home
Welcome
to
PICTURE PERFECT
this weeks theme is
Far from Home
The best thing about coming to the USA has been reconnecting with my mum and my sister. My sister and I have spent almost all of our adult lives on different continents, and being close to one another now is wonderful, but between my job and her family commitments the reality of each of us being available is sometimes a minor miracle!
Luckily my mother is always there for either of us, at a moments notice she packs a little over night bag and heads off to where she's needed, and (often) happily takes care of my home and dogs when I head north.
She is one of the most adaptable people I know, and even when she's Far from Home she manages to settle right in to my guest room and make herself comfy...
Monday, February 13, 2012
Have a happy heart today...
When you are joyful, when you say yes to life and have fun and project positivity all around you, you become a sun in the centre of every constellation ...and people want to be near you! Remember everyone is waiting to hear something, so dont wait to say the things you need to, tell someone you love them today and make their day shine..and yours.
Happy Heart Day!
GTP for Gary and MM for David ~ Hearts
Regardless of the pain that was when
decisions were made then
it makes me happy
now that you are too
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Thursdays Thoughts
1. I truly do love this city of Sacramento, art on every corner, a waterfront on the Sacramento river, with huge steamers..amazing restaurants, smart people to talk to in line....
2. The weather has been unbelievable this week, I walked to the gym in my tshirt (its Feb people!!), afterwards had my latte sitting in the sun making small talk with the cutest couple, who were more fascinated with my accent than anything I said. I suspect that happens often.
3. I don't think i have taken a single fabulous picture this week.. I always need to put them up on my computer though before I judge.
4. I have not had a smoothie all week..I miss that...
5. Life is full.
6. A long drive home tomorrow, and work tomorrow night. And I think its going to rain!
7. My sister and I signed up for some mosaic classes at Santa Barbara College...I'm looking forward to that when the two of them get back from a month in Mexico. She was interviewed a little while ago about her trip, and the wine they blended to carry with them on the voyage..its too sweet
8. I am going to South Africa at the end of March..yayyy...ticket not booked yet but the dates are guaranteed!
9. One more course to complete before then Advanc..ed Fetal Monitoring
10. Hellooo Turbo Tax..my old friend!
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Picture Perfect ~ Faces
Its competition time on Picture Perfect the theme this week is FACES
I went with a literal portrait this week..I took some pictures of a friends grandson during lunch one day, the cutest by far was when he picked up my readers, plonked them on his nose and said in a loud voice
'guess who'
Monday, February 6, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Sunburst
Pain erupts without warning. It jumps from one nerve ending to another with lightning speed and follows a hap-hazard path across my face as it weaves its miserable magic, and explodes somewhere near my cheekbone. It reduces me. I am the mess at the bottom of a pan that has been fried for too long, narcotics eventually bring relief. I sink into the abyss gratefully.
Today the sun bursts through flimsy curtains and I absorb the comfort it offers, revel in the warmth on my skin. No more tablets today, I vow.
Its almost lunchtime before I give in.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
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